How do you live for yourself?

Did i secretly stow away,
that knife i used
to gut my soul?

I'm getting so.
unstable.

I'm getting so.
erratic.

I'm getting so.
conscious.

Do you notice, the time spent,
between each message,
that you speak?
-I do. I feel like I could count the seconds.

Do yo notice, the feeling you get,
when you're about to say,
good bye?
- I don't.

Do you feel, the connective thought,
of a conversation,
while breaking out of it?
-I see everything in fragments.

Do you find, the emotion,
left behind a conversation,
when it's over?
-All I feel is the good bye.