Hawks

Is how they watch. For someone like me.

I guess I'll just finish the night, i should mention I'm getting strange shit feelings.

I asked her if she was single i believe where i last left off. My vision was so blurry then, I could barely make out her face. My eyes always turn to shit when i'm drunk. I know she was cute though. I ask her. She says no, do you really want to know my deal? protag: Hell yeah. 5'2: I was married for 4 years. I'm not anymore. protag: really. interesting. Do you want a drink? i'm going inside. 5'2: Nah i'm good. I go back inside. I get a drink. Go back outside, talk more. Inside after 5'2s asian friend finishes her cigarette. The asian girl disappears as we walked in. My eyes were set on 5'2. I come up, "Hey, do you want to go talk alone?" 5'2: what? uh. "Yeah outside, come on." 5'2: "Alright yeah sure." She follows me. We take some steps down the little front deck like deal at the bar and go to the curb. We start talking. Talking about everything. I tell her i'm a nerd, she tells me she's insecure with her age, 28. She asked me two or three times about it. She told me a lot about her past relationship because i was asking about it. After we got comfrotable, i used the game. "Do you think i'm attractive?" 5'2: "yeah." "Would you like to kiss me?" smiling, "yeah." 30 minutes of making out and fierce groping persue. Beast shouts behind the drunken lust which is now me and 5'2, "you know you have your own car right?" I was confused by the question. Before I could speak 5'2 did. "you have your own car?" "yeah. why?" "Well what the fuck are you waiting for you pussy?" "Haha, alright do you want to go for a ride somewhere?" "where would we go?" "Anywhere you want." "Haha, alright let me just tell asian girl." She took steps away from me. I stand there drinking my beer. Asian girl comes shouting : "Yo protagonist you're cool and all, but you're not taking her home. Fuck that. You are not taking her home." She walks in, 5'2 tries to talk to her, i tell her i really gotta go home for work in 5 hours. She say's alright. I say i'll text you tomorrow. They disappear back in the bar. I go to my car, drunk. I drive flawlessly home. I don't know how i went to sleep or how i did.