What's Next?

I can't stop thinking about what tomorrow will hold. I had music lessons today and played some guitar with Jobro.

I'm worried.
I'm concerned.

I feel like i'm getting in that depressed mood. This time for almost no reason.

I mean i did get burned pretty bad yesterday but i feel like I'm somewhat over it.

Two girls smiled at me today when they noticed me. It lifted my spirits well up.


What the hell do I want? Will I get it? Is it something even attainable? What the hell am I searching for?

I'm lost.

You're lost.

Really?

I feel like that's the theme of the month.

It just very well might be.

So talk to me shit face.

What do you want me to say?

Tell me why you feel in such a way.

Maybe Africa?

You think it's Africa?

Could be..  I mean were not exactly on good standards right now.

That's true, but you should be over her.

I think I am.. It just upsets me knowing were not okay anymore.. like just being around each other.

You don't know that yet, you haven't been around her in a lonnggg fucking time.

True. But i'm just worried that I don't know what it's going to be like when I see her.

What do you think is the best thing to do when you do see her?

I ran it through my head hundreds of times. It goes a little something like this:

Hey Africa, can I talk to you for a second? Look, I really just wanted to apologize again in person

Stop right there, you're trying to make her like you again by proving your self to her. Your not over her.

FUCK. I want to continue

Do you think that's a good idea?

Not really but i feel like it gives me some solace

Well do what makes you happy, but by now you know to be careful when on thin ice.

Hey Africa, can I talk to you for a second? Look, I really just wanted to apologize again in person. I was a complete douche and I really appreciate you as a friend and  I want it to be okay between us. If you want to know how it was brought it up, It was because I noticed how he acted around you. I could tell right off the bat that he liked you and I even asked Tangent and he said "Ohh yeah." I tried to talk to Brody about it and that's when i mentioned that we were kind of together at one point and made out.. I was trying to save him the pain of going through what i went through. I didn't want him to go through the same shit I did.