Be full. Be happy. Be you.
Stop living in the what if.
What if you had someone
What if you had sex
What if you have so many friends
What if you said every perfect word
What if you were irresistible
Think about what you do have. Stop expecting and stop worrying; time hasn't stopped. Live life, learn to love it, and others will learn to love you.
Sometimes puzzles solve themselves. Go on, each day with eyes open, mind free, and I promise you happiness will be trying to pursue you in envy.
The day after last post sucked shit. The shitty feeling started to wear off and today it was even less. But I still have that feeling creeping in the back of my mind somewhere. I'm still stuck in the what ifs. I forgot how to have fun by myself. I'm not even sure if I knew how to. Video games engulfed me I think. It was so long ago I barely remember.
I think I'm grieving and still coping with breaking up with my ex. It's strange because I don't recognize it. I could be mistaken of course. I've realized I truly hate being alone. The feeling of having someone always there for you and being so utterly happy is disgustingly comforting now. Life was great with her and i know, but it wasn't enough for me and I'm glad i didn't do anything stupid.
Do me at least one favor?
What's that?
Don't fall in love with someone because you want someone to love you. Fall in love because you find each inch of her body beautiful, because every aspect of her personality makes you cherish her, because you know that with every ounce of your love given, it is returned, in full.
I'll try. I want to. I know it has to be this way, if it isn't, than it isn't love.
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