So being around fearless makes me feel like i'm crazy or something. She's intricate in ways i dare not explain. But I love every moment trying to figure out how she ticks. She told me I was writer. I appreciated that.
I am a reverse engineer of anthropology.
Why the fuck am I so inhuman?!
Note: I got yelled at for "spending most my time not studying" in our computer lab at college. I was fucking furious because it was literally only the 2nd time I've ever been using the lab to go on facebook after having gone in there for over a year. I FELT HAPPY. He gave me purpose. He gave me a goal, he gave me direction. I stared at him in the eyes and told him "most of the time I am studying." He responded with his eyes widening his anger growing after hearing me speak, "What's that?" pointing at my screen. "Yeah i know it's Facebook. But Most of the time I'm in here I'm studying." "What's that? Your not. Most of the time your just not working." His broken English and Chinese culture fucking infuriated the fuck out of me. What was even more furious was him telling me how i spend my time. Hey fuck face, i don't know if you can recall, but you never fucking check to see what i'm doing except in the past two days because my monitor faced your room. Don't base your fucking opinnions of how i spent the last year of my time on the last two days that you've seen me. You're an arrogant fuck who should shut the fuck up when it comes to peoples lives. The fucking computer lab was built for students like me to do whatever the fuck i need. Get a fucking reality check and realize that your job title isn't "Arrogant asshole who insults students through close-minded personal opinions."
Fearless- I'm afraid I'm falling in love with you. But I'm far too comfortable to lose you to make me feel that I'm truly in love.
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