On Vyvanse

I'm towards the end if not passed the half-life. Vyvanse is an ADD medication. I had pretty bad memory problems due to my inability to concentrate.. It's interesting anyway. Africa.

I don't want to accept the fact that i like her because i don't understand why.

I know i can feel ethereal happiness with almost anyone because i'm willing to make sacrifices in my life that i'm comfortable with. She could be that someone. Since i can be compatible with almost anyone, flaws are flawless. There's only a few subtle things that truly make me not want to be with her.

Review of what those things maybe.

Idea - Unfortunate defusal.

How she doesn't give me a lot of attention -  I'm not sure, she seemed very attentive in our moments of acceptance. If we were to go out she might change. She said she would regretfully.

Her strong opinions - i don't mind her opinions no matter how much i doubt them as long as she doesn't tell me how i should make mine.

How friendly she is with guys - acceptance. I'm the jealous type right now. I know i shouldn't be but right now I am, and I haven't put the effort into trying to reason with myself why i shouldn't be.

How she's in love with her ex - I feel like if i show her a great enough time she'll turn around and say ex-who? I feel like any problem is solvable as long as your willing to accept the answers. [which i find to be quite tricky as of late.]

Failure to return my love - This ricochets back to the problem with the ex. If i solve that i think she could have potential to return every ounce given.

I'm embarrassed of her and how i feel towards her - I feel like she can be unattractive at times, and I don't mind it but, I'm afraid how my family and friends will react when they see her. I feel 50/50 about how true this statement is. [man that's hurtful]

Enough of that for now. Were making excellent progress!

I saw a rip in her seam. She said that she tries to avoid most medicines through eclectic means and horticulture, but said that it usually doesn't work. --- She doubts her very means of stable existence. She thinks that she might not be the way she portrays herself and wants to be. I love that, because I somewhat dislike that about her. How strongly she believes in such things.

Time to work on school.