Bell, Africa, and now introducing, Fearless.

Fearless, is such a temptress that she is the only girl to have me say: "I have to have her." Not to hold or contain, but to join and become utterly familiar with her smell, her touch, her breath, and voice.

She's in my acting class this semester. She shows exactly what I want for what I give. I feel she is completely open and unafraid to do anything. That's me. I couldn't be more open if i tried. She's bold, without inhibitions she acts almost carelessly, but accepts facts. She won't let words take her down. She has a bite that awaits your every word, ready to hit you back with a refreshing sting. She has the power to make me laugh on command. She can immediately determine what she wants and can instantaneously make a truthful opinion (rare to find.)  Her slight looks and angled gazes makes me feel like she's clever and witty. It made me feel as if.. she was plotting my downfall or lighting a fuse with devious intent... she's inspecting my weak points to meet my utter demise. I hope she expects me to fall to her feet. I'm desperately eager to show that I won't go down without a fight. As Fearless plays coy I silently strengthen my walls.

Reasons why I shouldn't go ice skating.

Thin Ice:

Seems too independent - your Love won't be returned in full.
Eager to leave class - Has something to look forward too. That's outside school.. boyfriend?
Talks to everyone easily - Potential to make me insane with jealousy
Could be a religious freak - Agnosticism will prevail.


I need to stop filling my tank. I'm afraid I'm packing too much fuel for this trip.
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Africa and Bell might have a stand off at our trip coming up. I told Bell I'd teach her gambling, she seemed a little to excited.. Africa might still have feelings for me, so I might be tempted to spend time with her.

Option A: Go off with Bell, teach her gambling, STRESS myself into not trying to make anything of our relationship

Option B: Go off with Africa, show her a good time only for her to tell me it's nothing. Or maybe get drunk and see what happens in a room spent together.

So now my major flaw, is I have difficulty in determining acts of friendship from acts of passion. I'm bound to fuck up with either choice. But which will have less of a reverberating and costly effect?