I woke up this morning feeling a sharp pain radiating throughout my mid back. I took a deep breath as it intensified. I rolled over to take the pressure from my chest. I realized the rush of energy I got from the munchies the night before.
I tossed and turned imagining where I am now. What my life is. I thought of graduation, I thought of my father, I thought of what little friends I have, I thought of tuesday. I put it all aside and said, "it's too early for that."
I wiped my eyes looking over my arms acrossed one another into the wall. The blankets lay like hills from plowed fields on a farm. I felt happy. I felt content. But now, it's somewhat normal again.
So, I've lost Tuesday.
I still want to be there for her in her life.
I found that as retarded as taoism is, I think I've been living it's ways most of my life. Not ever trying to never fail. And I guess that's alright. I'll try things when I know I can do them. But for now, maybe it's best I don't set goals for myself. That I look at what I have rather than what I don't.
Take care Tuesday,
I'm here for you.
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