It's late. I've got work in the morning.

I can't help but pleasure myself while I find a moment in time.

I think I have a problem with... masturbation.


I don't like to talk about it, because I feel judged.
I don't like to talk about it, because it puts the thoughts of all the things wrong with it.
I don't like to talk about it, because it brings up things I've never got to experience. (I've had sex.)
I don't like to talk about it, because it makes me think of the people who have it, who don't deserve it.
I don't like to talk about it, because I'm weak.
I don't like to talk about it, because it puts expectations on things.

Fuck everything.

I feel like taking a hit, but I'm trying to stay on the straight and narrow.



Did I mention I almost got arrested last night?
Hm, that would have proven impossible to fix my life after that point.

Thank you officer, but I have to say, you were still a f'n cunt.