I fucking love classical music.

I need to find myself. I thought I did. Now I'm feeling i don't know anymore.

I'm listening to yo-yo ma on Pandora. he's the shit. I completely broke off the rules i set for myself in this blog. But I have no one to talk to, so welcome to my life. I want to draw. I can't find something to. It's 10:26. only 34 minutes before 8 hours passes to sleep. Last night i only slept 5 hours.

I have a poor habit of sleeping when i need to. I feel like i'm missing something and that I can't sleep until I get it.

Suite for Cello in G1 just came on.. Song never gets old.

So what the fuck am i missing that keeps me up at night? Friends? Probably. I just want someone to fucking understand me. I feel like I have no friends right now that truly does. I wonder if anyone else feels the way I do. I need a fucking support network god damnit. I'll be there for you if your there for me.

I think that I see a girlfriend as a huge support in my life so that's probably why i want one so bad. But i guess that's taking the easy way out. I need to make friends. I really should take this acting class but all the sudden i'm feeling bitter towards it. I feel like what if i'm not up to par with everyone else. I could always drop and never see them again. That feels comforting knowing that. I'm also planning on taking guitar making next semester a 14 credit course.. i guess thats good. I know i can remember the script easy that they require you to remember. I just don't if i can act well.

Adaigo for a strings. Fuck can't listen to that, it'd bring me to near suicide. Super depressing song if you ever get to hear it.