Lacklustre

It's valentines day. Guess that means I give myself an extra bit of loving today. That reminds me, I need more lubricant. Hah. I've cut my hair into a mohawk, and I love it. At first it was to short but now it's grown in. I've gotten compliments as well as "Jesus Protagonist your so intimidating." I laughed it off and thought of the old days when I was in highschool.

I'm searching in myself for something to write about, something that I have conviction for. I love that word, conviction. The first time I really heard of it, it was from x-best friend, the same one who X moved in with and had a fling. We were talking about something useless like politics at the time and I believe we went to Washington for some kind of rally.

Politics. Ugh. The notion of it is so hard to think of now. I had some thoughts of insight toward politics and people today. Most of us, won't care about politics. Plenty of us, won't care about senators or even who the president is. Why? Well look at your life. How bad is it right now? In America we've food, water, entertainment, drugs, alcohol. We're sated. We're not hungry for a change. We're not in dire need of a better tomorrow. So politics? Politics is bullshit until it directly impacts our lives. The main involvement of everyone who follows politics I feel is fueled by fear, that tomorrow is going to be a new hell, when really it's never going to be that bad. However I hope when it does impact most of us, they haven't crossed to far of a line that it'd call for a revolution.

It feels so good to talk about something else other than myself. Fuck! I just remembered. I may still be enrolled in my college at jersey city university. I never canceled anything, but I also never registered for classes. However.. the head of the university in the branch that I go to seemed to have signed me up for one class without my premission.. Well. Fuck. I'm too afraid to confront it. Like being diagnosed with cancer and refusing to accept it.

I have to go to the doctor to get another prescription of vyvanse. It's been a while since I've felt flawless and endlessly happy. I could use it for trying to get my shit together.

Also, Tuesday, get your fucking internet working.