I saw a girl today that struck me deep at my bone. She wore skinny jeans. She had a white knit beanie. Her shirt was somewhat loose and swayed when she walked. And. She. Wore. Big. Fucking. Glasses. With long blonde hair, and a tiny frame, but tall like a model. I stood in awe, as she possibly couldn't fathom. She walked with a friend who faded from view as she walked while my lights dimmed and as the spotlight grew. It encircled around her like how I imagined the shape of the moon would shine on you as a kid. She lay her arm in a loose swagger.
God damn, I ran openers in and out of my head. I couldn't think of any except saying: Hey I dig your glasses, they're super sexy. Maybe replacing sexy with cute. Sexy would be strong, but my mind can't think that far ahead.
Ever since I drank last tuesday my mind feels like it got white washed from all the knowledge i had about approaching women. And not giving a shit. I think i need a refresher.
I hope I regain what I spent learning right before that night. I really did feel like i lost it the next two following days. I felt the fucking rut. The fucking trench of my own personal world war, slowly being filled with eviscerating mustard gas.
The last post about time however, seems to have helped me get through some shit. I kind of feel like i'm going back to sanity. Kind of getting back on track. However, I feel it's limiting abilities. Not willing to risk myself as I usually did. I think I need a motivational speech again.
Carpe-THE FUCKING-diem:
You live once. REALIZE YOUR FUCKING WORTH AND NEVER UNDERESTIMATE IT. You fucking make shit fun. You fucking make people laugh until they cry. You are a fucking lightning bolt that strikes the earth and succesfully accomplishes your life goal: TO LEAVE A DENT IN THE WORLD YOU LEFT BEHIND. Seriously. You can make any situation a fucking end of a rainbow. Better than a pot of gold. SO step. 1 know your worth.
You can only fuck so many times at the age of 22. So fucking make some mistakes. Get magic school bus up in this shit. Go speak your word. Go onward to make the dumbest jokes in the world. Just KNOW AND BE the reason why you ACT. Than my friend, YOU ARE FUCKING INDESTRUCTIBLE. UNSTOPPABLE. INCONCEIVABLE. GRAMMA LIKE A HAMMA - INFORMATION RECEIVABLE.
A rationale to forever remember: So what if you look like an ass, if you look like a loser, if you look like an outcast, if you look like you have no friends, if you look like you have no life, if you look like your boring. Just do, because you know you're only going to be 22 once. You know there's only so many moments of your life left. You know that sitting around and not taking a chance to get hit isn't going to make you stronger so you. Point being, never stop trying to achieve. Never Stop Trying. IF YOU DO, It's going to leave you at your same surmounted worth. Staying in this little petrified box is going to make you enjoy your life so much less. BURN THE FUCKING WALLS DOWN.
So the next time a girl comes by. You say: Excuse me, Hey my name is Dave what's yours? AND FOLLOW YOUR FUCKING HEART. AND KNOW YOUR REASON. AND DON'T FILL YOUR MIND WITH DOUBTS. ONLY DREAMS OF LAUGHTER AND FOREVER AFTER.
Displaced heart.
i'm sorry if i'm coming off weird or something just learning how to be a better person you know? Like how many times do you walk by someone wishing to turn back time to say something?
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