Courtesy?

I question, you courtesy.
When I sat there today,
i did not want to stay.

Stars asked if i was
going to come today.

I did. we did.
We jumped on record
to spin and spin
with the beautiful noise
Of intelligence

But i was struck.
I felt lack of love
In the things I did not

I meant to say:
Hey, im going to leave
I can't study.
I'll be somewhere.

I realized
i should have said:
This isn't what I wanted.
I think i just meant
to hangout with you.

But i could not be true.
I sat and stayed,
to be gast and frayed.