Deserve is a funny word because no one knows what we deserve

The last words Megan spoke to me before I told her I need to be by myself.

Fuck.

I made that girl feel so fucking happy.

So fucking happy.
She couldn't connect to anyone else she was telling me.
She hadn't gotten close to anyone in 3 years until me.
And I fucked her over.

I have something in my head telling me i'm too soft.
Something telling me i'm too hard on myself.
She would have never had that happiness if it weren't for me.
The fact she lost it, doesn't matter, because she wouldn't have had it if it weren't for me.


None-the-less.

She DESERVES to be happy.

I feel like a fucking prick.

But it had to be done.
I had too many emotions hidden.

Megan, cheers to you. Best of luck.
Ill drink to you in hopes you find a better life.