I'm trying to find my balance again. I'm feeling.. A little more independent then usual. But i'm still having these crazy ass swings. I feel like it's just a daily thing. Either the day is good and well, or shit and painful.
I woke up today in the strangest manner. I felt tired, but couldn't sleep. I saw the darkness of my eyes closed behind the lids like thick shutters in a dark room. Every few moments I'd throw up my wrist to my face, to look at my watch I fell asleep with. Time would just melt with each wink. I had these crazy dreams that i have no recollection of but i'd swear were real. I can only just barely catch the edge of reality and find out that the dreams i had weren't memories. I imagined instances of just.. being around with jobro and everyone, and having something completey random happen. Something like where we'd just be at a table and he'd bring up submarines. Then when i'm walking around in the day, we bring up submarines and something would click in my head, and i'd say hey didn't we talk about this before? wait. no that was a dream. I felt fucking exhausted just laying there. Searching for a comfortable spot. I writhed and wiggled and stretched vigourosly. I turned onto my stomach and went into fetal position to relax my back to rest. I'd then sprawl out stretching my back as far as it could bend giving a short burst of screaming aloud.
I don't know where i'm going with this.
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