Im at the doctors right now for my stomach. It got real fucked up somehow. its excruciating to eat anything, or at least it was until 3 days ago. Now its just slight painful under my mid back.
Ive been really retarded recently. I can't come up with proper words, I can't use logic skills. My memory has turned to shit. I can't remember half the things I do anymore. Im beginning to feel like that movie momento.
I used to have this feeling when I smoked weed that I've had to much. Im at the point now where I can barely satisfy my needs. I still get to the point where I've had to much if my depression hits me real hard.
Ember just bought texting service and messaged me in the morning telling me she loves me and fixed her tattoo on her arm that used to say Ray* for her physically abusive ex boyfriend. Now it says Pray, for her religious beliefs. I told her apprehensively again that I was atheist. But a little light in a dark house will be a good thing.
I still love Ember even though its been 3 months since I've seen her. She's still living with that crazy guy in his house who's obsessed with her. The tale of the slum girl who had no love. She had to live with him so she wasn't homeless. She was for 3 days prior to moving In. She was jumped a block from where she stays one night when the crazy guy called the cops on her. Ember called me up bawling, and I told her id drive down to Florida to pick her up back home to me.
My new bestfriend Mikail, is planning to move in with me, he's going to be crashing on the couch paying a measely amount of money to help me make the bills. I work 7 days a week and struggle to find time to sleep. Im planning on sleeping early from now on.
I don't want to bother speaking to anyone far to often. The only words I want to read are from Ember. The only voice I want to hear need to be from Ember. I love her. Oh, fuck, im 23.
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