Seeking you.
Something.
I spent the night out in Philly. I was with four of my friends and 3 friends of one friend. I was silent. I didn't care to speak. There was nothing that I could think of to care enough to speak about. Over the course of the night people began to ask me if I was okay. I hate that. I felt okay, I just didn't care for anything. I didn't care for any of the conversations we were having and I'm far done asking about people. Learning things about them. I feel that I may associate people with awkwardness and being uncomfortable. For better or worse that's how I've become. I have a large sense of apathy but I'm okay with that. It kind of sucks that I'm not entertaining for others but I'm far better then I've been in a while. I need to take chances with people to find the gratification of interacting once again.
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