I feel strange, more of a lack of feeling.
Things all around me are becoming mundane.
Not in the sense that things make me depressed.
Things have lost their light.
Their glimmer.
Why?
What is it I want?
Can I get that which I look for?
I'm having thoughts of cutting,
And feeling pleasure in knowing Tuesday would seek out why I was feeling this way.
It deeply comforts me knowing she actively seeks that I'm okay; That I'm feeling happy.
This thought is the only pleasurable moment of being awake today.
I don't mean to be an "attention whore" I can't find happiness anywhere else right now and I'm holding back tears.
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