Eh

I'm coming quite disgusted of how I'm becoming. I'm not sure what it is.. And quite honestly.. I'm feeling ashamed of how I am. Everything I see that reminds me of you, it fills me with something inexplicable. It makes me embarassed. It makes me think I'm some type of person that shouldn't be accepted by society. But it doesn't stop me. I feel obsessed. I feel affine. I'm not sure if I truly know you. Or if you'll ever let me. I can't help but be overwhelmed by you. I'm getting to that point where it's just sickening to hear me speak of you. I can't let go. I don't think I ever will. Despite all, I still can't help.. but..