Time Rewound: A spontaneous building of character

I am the median between social butterfly and alienated nerd. I've lived somewhere in between cliques and felt like I lifted friends up from the antisocial world to a higher more pleasant place of being.

I thrived in-doors. I loved computers, video games, television. Anything that if you stand in front of it long enough, it'll give you some kind of health problem. Hah, I'm a chronic masochist. Anyway, childhood was comprised of computers, and going out with my cousins and neighborhood kids to play football, manhunt, paintball, and crab apple wars (fuck yeah).

Crab apple wars works like this:

1. Find a disgusting apple that's rock hard and inedible ( the bigger the better )
2. Choose a target
3. Aim and Throw

Rules:
Last man standing

It was completely dangerous and really fun.. If you had the big kids on your team.


Interesting past story:
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At one point  in 4th grade my best friend and I were fairly known and everyone loved us. it was a great , I had more friends then than I do now.. And a baffling completely random event occurred. My best friend disappeared. No one saw him for about 7 years. 7 frigging years. I literally thought he died or had some super contagious incurable disease. There wasn't any warning to when it happened. One day he just never showed up to class and that was it. Poof. The teacher never gave us an explanation or told us anything about it. I wasn't upset but it definitely sucked missing a friend.

Now the second part, I met him again for the first time since that day in 4th grade in junior year, high school. My girlfriend at the time had somehow been his only friend that he had since me and they were just newly acquainted that year. When i met him it was sad suprise. I found him to be completely socially incapable of holding a conversation, maintaining eye contact, and feeling comfortable around people in general. Of the maybe 6 words he spoke over a 4 hour period of hanging out, he mentioned that he really did want to talk to people and be social, but limited himself because he was afraid. fucking weird.
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Anyhow shit I've been writing for ever. I meant to give an idea of who I am.

Life in a nutshell:


5th grade - became nobody and i nearly became fused to my computer permanently.

Junior year, Mohawk, i hung out with some girl down the street all the time and she went bat shit when i got a girlfriend. It was a four year relationship from age 17-21.

I broke up two weeks ago because i felt like i was missing out on life being confined. i also found my self falling in love with other girls. I wasn't sure if i was in the relationship because of guilt or what. She lived with me.

Here I am now. 21. I gotta start fucking living life.

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