Furious

Because youre as gentle as a bulldozer stuck in drive.
Because id do away anything trivial  for you, all just to make you happy.

And you?

You put yourself first. Like a prominent tattoo that reads "fuck you" on your forehead.

I am insecure.
Im afraid of losing someone I need in my life.
As I triple check my locks on my door because I cant imagine a life where id have nothing.
As I am paranoid, that everyone hates me even though they are my friends.
As I believe I am nothing, even though I breathe.

I dont want you to be getting off my friends.

Testing boundaries throws lightning down my spine urging me to lash and scream.

Sow your wild oats - just without me.

Its too much for me to handle.