I have work in an hour. Im utterly exhausted. Ember hasnt messaged me in days. I feel like its taking a toll on my feelings for her. Shes probably going through bouts of depression hoping I get sick of her and leave her because she believes I deserve someone better.
You deserve someone better :"( shed say.
Over.
And
Over.
Makes me think shes doing something I dont approve of. I wonder if shes popping pills again. Although the last time she broke in tears saying she regretted it over the phone to me and that she was sorry.
She could easily be lying to me. I believe she values me but everythimg else in her life? I dont know.
Fucking a Ember. Fucking A.
I feel like a plant without water when I dont hear from her. Near death, wilted, dried out. Maybe her last petal will fall of the rose that I grew for her, and ill move on. I fucking hate feeling like my life is on pause waiting for someone who cant even tell me good morning or goodnight.
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